CRITICS! The good and the bad.

Week 4 is here and I the plan is to get in over 40 miles total this week and I am pretty pumped, or at least I am trying to be.  The weather is awesome this week so I am hoping to run both morning and evenings just to get in some extra miles here and there. Again, I am not following my training to the exact mile, but I am combining the Hal training, a friend’s training process, and just doing what feels good. My goal is to run the event, not win it. Week three ended great and I am feeling pretty good about where I am at. I feel if I keep going at this pace I will be able to complete a 26.2 mile course by October.

I want to stop and talk about the critical people in life, because I am sure we all deal with this and it is a hard subject and one that effects me more than I would like. I recently went to the pool for the first time with the kiddos, and for the first time in 2 years I wore a two piece swimsuit. For all you mothers out there you probably know this is hard to do and you are constantly worried that you might not look the best because of stretch marks and imperfections that our little miracles might have caused. I felt like I had worked really hard though and I wanted to feel confident with myself enough to do this so I went for it! I actually felt pretty good while I was there and my husband also made a very positive comment when I got home about the way I looked, so by the end of the day I felt like I had made a good decision and felt confident.  However, the next day I found out from a friend that someone I knew, who I considered a “friend” was talking down about the way I looked in my swimsuit. It hit me hard and not only was I just completely hurt, but also just really down about my body image. I let it get to me for several days after, and I am not sure if I will continue to wear the suit and that alone makes me very sad. It is crazy that people are so critical, that say things so hurtful, that people can steal your sunshine in an instant.  My husband keeps saying to not let it get to me, but it is so hard. Unfortunately if you put yourself out there, you are always going to have people that do not accept you. I am sure there are people out there that make fun of this blog, of my posts, my pictures, my stories and I can say it does not get to me, but it does. Is it going to stop me? No.

So as I wrote about the negative let me cancel it out with a positive, I have received a TON of positive feedback and I am so grateful for that and that is what I continue to focus on. I will continue to give positive feedback to all my friends and anyone out there wanting or trying to make a change, trying something new, or just putting themselves out there. Life is so short, why not encourage as many people out there as we can? Why must the world be so cruel, I have no idea? I do know that we can change it one positive comment at a time.

Now that i am finished with that let me say how excited I am for the rest of the week! I am running a 5k race with my hubby on Saturday for the 4th of July and I am so pumped! He is my biggest supporter and has just been there for me 100 percent and I love sharing this all with him.  I plan to run 10 miles early before just to get in more miles so I am for sure not planning to run my personal best during the race. I am just doing it for fun. I feel like I have to run for fun some of the time and not be so focused on time and distance. I feel like I would get way too burned out if I did not.

I will post some new recipes and pics of my runs this week and also report on how my race went. Again thank you for all the support and just remember to stay positive, no matter what!


Run on!


WEEK 3- I have got this!

I am in the middle of week three and things are going ok with training. I feel like I need to stop slacking off at the beginning of the week because it is hard to catch up at the end of the week and it puts a lot of pressure on the weekends to get my miles in, so this will be my goal for next week. As the week progresses I am feel good. Today’s run was amazing, I think it was because of a couple things; 1) the temperature was much cooler than it has been an humidity was low, 2) I have changed my diet recently which I will talk a little bit about here in a second. I started at strength training class and it was awesome because it focused a lot on core and arms, which are my weak points, and it left my legs good for the run. Afterwards, we ran hills, and I mean hills, but for the first time in a long time I enjoyed the group run. I didn’t think about my time. I didn’t worry about the fact that I might be slowing the girls down because they are better runners than I am, I just ran. We laughed a lot and in the end my time was great for hills! I went back and compared the time that Hal, training program, wanted me to run hills at and I was dead on so I was extremely happy about that.

All of my runs are not positive, I struggle a lot. I have received a couple emails saying how do you do it every morning? Are you not tired? I do not blog a lot about the times I do not make it out of bed and have to run in the evenings and try to bear the heat, mostly because when I look back on this experience I want to focus more on the good things. I also do not want to recap the bad moments, they have passed, I have learned from them, and I have moved on. However, there are times I give up, walk, quit, do not get out of bed, cry, and oh yeah, I threw up running sprints last week but I am guessing you probably do not want to hear about that either. LOL!  It has all taught me to not take any of this too seriously because who really cares. I will never be an Olympic runner, I will never win a marathon, I am just doing this because it is something I enjoy. If you stop enjoying it, what really is the point? That is why instead of running last night, I watched a movie with my hubby.

My body is getting stronger and my stride is SO different than it was 3 weeks ago. It is lighter and I run more on the front of my feet. Why? I have no idea! I am sure an expert could tell me, but that is just what I am observing. I feel myself sitting back more, relaxing, breathing different, and just really feeling more at ease. I am sure that is because my body is just really getting used to running mile after mile. Now we will see if I am talking the same talk after 14 miles on Saturday! HA!

As far as my diet, I had a great talk with my sister-in-law Michelle who is a cross fit competitor in the Kansas City area and someone I look up to in the fitness world. She has transformed her body over the last year and I knew she would be a good person to get notes from. It is not that I thought I was eating bad, but I just did not feel like I was getting a good balance. I was eating a ton but still feeling weak during runs. I felt sluggish and just knew something wasn’t right. Some things she suggested were; 1) Drink plenty of water. I thought I was drinking a lot of water until I compared it to her 3 liters she drinks everyday and I about passed out. However, active people need to rehydrate so I started carrying a jug with me so I make sure a consume this amount of water everyday! 2) I was eating carbs but not the right carbs and not at the right time. She suggested instead of pasta trying to pull carbs from other food such as my peanut butter. I have been using PB2 because it takes away a lot of the fat, but natural peanut butters, any kind of nut butters are going to give you lots of energy. This is a problem because I am not a fan of natural peanut butter and I cannot handle almond butter what so ever.  She suggested Cashew butter, and it is much better. So now 30 minutes before runs I have my cashew butter with a half of banana. Protein is SO important and I do not think I was getting enough.  I am trying to have eggs for at least one meal a day and research on different ways to make them. Today I mixed eggs with peppers, onions, bacon chips, and garlic.. I poured the mixture into muffin tins and backed at 375 for 20 minutes or so. I topped it with avocado and it was SO good. I am also trying to eat bigger meals, yes BIGGER to keep me full longer. This was something else she suggested. I am trying to have a big lunch and a smaller dinner, which use to be complete opposite for me. So far these changes have had a very positive effect on my running. I am not counting calories so I couldn’t tell you where I am, but I am just trying to consume more veggies and fruits, and less complex carbs.

I am super excited for some fun at the lake this weekend with my family. After my long run on Saturday I will only need 5 more miles to complete my weeks mileage as long as I stay on track, so I am excited to run them at the lake. Hopefully my sister will run it with me as she has started running too! We hope to do a race together next fall.  I love that we now have this whole new world of training to share.

Thanks for reading guys and for all the support and nice comments!

Run on!